#7 - Reality isn't how I imagined it going in my head
When I pictured myself eventually getting a job, I imagined it being freeing and exciting. I envisioned myself having much more freedom, more confidence and self-belief, and overall just feeling like I could finally live my life in the way I have always wanted to live it. I thought that by finally gaining some independence over my life and earning my own money, things would begin to look more positive, and I would be able to break out of this feeling of being shackled by the mental weights inside of my head. I constantly waited for the day I would get paid employment, thinking that that would be the first day of my life where I could finally live my life with pure freedom. The reality is that, after working in paid employment for 4 months now, it feels like nothing has really changed. I feel even more shackled and anxious now because I have more responsibilities and commitments. I have even more stuff to remember, so I'm constantly juggling numerous different thoughts in my head,